PS: I tend to miss this kind of moment A LOT.... ><
2011, in short, is a year of growth, a year of change in the way I look at things and of course, a year of fun.
AUSMAT journey was both thrilling and harsh for me. Studying process was hectic, but I did have my fun. It's in the making of documentary "Night Owls", the making of advertisement parody as well as the production of Rabbit Proof Fence and Australia's posters that I learnt to sacrifice for others and to put others' need in front of mine. I learnt how to cooperate, to share out tasks, to give and take. But guess that's the only hard part about working in groups, for I had ample fun throughout the process and I simple couldn't stop hoping for more assignments actually. I think I managed my time well (I guess) and though we are piled up with loads and loads of assignments and tests which seemed never-ending, I still managed to tour around KL quite often, either alone or in group. As for tests, exams and assignments, true enough I am no wonder girl and of course, there were moments when I would fare very well in tests and assignments and of course, there were also moments when I too flunked them, but it's only a learning process after all. It's in these ups and downs that I learnt not to take everything for granted, not to over-estimate my ownself but most of all, I learnt, to give space to myself and not to push myself way too far.
I got to join Raleigh activities for a few times this year. This has changed me a lot, really and I owed CHaw a big thanks in this. I have to admit I am not good in socializing. I am the worst among the so-called "Four Golden Flowers". But nevermind, as things changed later on. I befriended friends of all age, some are already working but most importantly, I finally realise that it's not the number of friends we had that mattered the most at the end of the day. It's more about giving more than you receive, being truthful and helpful even things may trouble you a bit. And gosh, it took me 19 years to actually see through this and to understand it. C=
Trips. Like I said, I am somehow blessed with lots of trips this year. Melaka, Sarawak, Singapore, Shanghai and Genting... Frankly, travelling is exhausting, but then, thinking about the fun and joy and most importantly, the indelible memories makes everything worth a go. Moreover, I am not the kind who likes to stay indoor very much, and thus, I will always hold on to the stance "the more the better" for trips no matter what happens. *wink wink*
Basically, there were no life-changing events. Oh except for the surprisingly good result I attained in WACE which secured me a flight ticket to OZ... And also the I-don't-how-it-becomes-like-this-too-relationship... =D But overall, it's one peaceful year. Yes, there were pains, but I came to know that if we look at things from a different angle, some pains will subside and eventually, we become more accepting. I learnt to be happy and grateful at little minute things and came to understand that happiness is not about getting more and MORE, but being grateful at anything that comes from a truthful heart. I still believe in miracles. In fact, I believe life itself is a miracle, even though life isn't fair sometimes.
It's about time to say byebye to 2011. I don't know what god has planned out for me for 2012 as well as the future, but I know, everything happens for a reason. Whatever it is, I won't pray for a simple easy life in me. What I pray and wish for is the courage to brave through the storms. To be strong throughout and to be able to hold on even if chances may seem bleak. To be able to love unconditionally and to receive critics with an open heart. To forgive but never forget. To keep my head high even when people has doubts on me. To be able to swallow my pride at times but never lose myself. To be good and to do good...
And one more thing, I am a good stalker. >.< Sorry for the randomness...
